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Friday, November 06, 2009

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 18:08:37 GMT

I'm so blessed to have the afternoon off. and for getting to go to another Shane and Shane concert FOR FREE yesterday. and for good friends. and for God working out my schedule SO WELL this week. and for a good 2 weeks learning about back pain and pain management. and for kind interviewers at Long Beach Memorial yesterday. and for an opportunity to rest now.

At the interview yesterday, I learned a lot about the Family Medicine residency in Long Beach. They have excellent training, and the residents come out with such great inpatient experience, 60+ vaginal deliveries, and a lot of community outreach experience. It really is a program with a passion for social justice. But for 9 months of the year, you are on overnight call every 4th night...no night float...that means, only one weekend off a month for 9 months of the year and not sleeping every 4th night. In the end...is it worth it? What good is it to be an excellent, well trained experienced doctor, yet forfeit your soul?

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

Tue, 03 Nov 2009 02:30:00 GMT

If I ever have a son, I hope to name him Noah.

think about it...

God told him to build an Ark, and he simply said: "ok."

He said "ok."
... he built an ark.

the world must have thought he was crazy.
...for 150 years.

But it was worth it all.

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Sat, 31 Oct 2009 13:48:46 GMT

What Matters...

It's been a long week without a real day to just rest in a long time since finishing a busy month which ended with a full weekend and a sick week with some unexpected early mornings. And by busy, I mean, full of GOOD things, but sleep wasn't one of them and that has definitely caught up with me. So earlier this week, I felt like I was running on empty and thought to myself, "I don't want to be responsible today or do any of the right things I know I need to do and are good for me. I just want to be a sluggard today, then waste my money on worthless vain things, day dream in a pretty park, stare at trees, be a glutton." I'm not saying that there isn't a good place for rest, relaxation and good food, but today was not that day. and I guess "being responsible" somehow involves knowing the difference.

A friend told me a while back that "Character is who you are when no one is looking." So maybe the decision I make right now to do the right thing is more important than all my good intentions for tomorrow, all "lofty" career goals, or career commitments. What matters is the state of my heart this moment, this cross, this offering, now. This is what is most important. My good friend sent me a quote that captures this perfectly: "The real worth of life happens at the cellular level of one-moment at a time believing God's promises, praying like breathing, and obeying His Spirit immediately. There are no larger battles"

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Tue, 20 Oct 2009 02:30:04 GMT

Limits.

Today the thing I was worried would happen...happened. and it was ok. In fact, God gave me the grace and energy to deal with it at that moment...Im so glad I didn't know it was going to happen or else I would have been too stressed out to deal with it. And I got stretched in ways i didn't want to be stretched... pushed to new limits. And what a marvelous feeling after it is all over. What a faithful God!

Monday, October 19, 2009

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 04:56:15 GMT

one 75 hour work week
2 patients who are dying
...who heard the gospel
an opportunity to worship at a church that loves the poor.
a visit to Pikes Market in Seattle with beautiful cousin and her boyfriend.
a walk with a friend in the most beautiful park ever
spending time with precious people
= one sweet week.

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 13:46:33 GMT

The scriptures are living and active. I appreciate Piper's message about this here:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FOkLP6VHtWk

Sunday, October 04, 2009

Sun, 04 Oct 2009 03:13:44 GMT

It's Saturday night. Last night, I went to a Feast of the Tabernacles celebration here with a Jewish congregation in Seattle. We sang through a lot of psalms in Hebrew for about an hour and heard a Rabbi teach about what manner of "carrying" is lawful on the Sabbath and it was interesting to see how excited everyone got over it. I'm so thankful that God is a God who sees past all these outward things and looks at the heart. He is the only one in the end who can make our hearts clean anyways.

It's so good to be here. Good to see my cousins and be with them more than I have before. I'm on call tomorrow with a fellow Loma Linda graduate who is very kind. God has been so gracious to me and right now, there isn't anywhere else I want to be.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Tue, 29 Sep 2009 04:43:09 GMT

When you are on an away rotation, you are supposed to make a good impression. They say, every day is an interview. But I can only be who God created me to be. I cannot be scheming, elegant, witty, or impressive. God has given me His grace, and that is enough for me.

God, though I am not aggressive, may I be courageous
though I am not loud, may I be bold
though I am not scheming or witty, may I be wise
though I am not flashy, may I reflect your beauty.
Lord, make me more courageous, bold, wise, and beautiful.

"God is able to make all grace abound to you so that always, having all sufficiency, in everything, you may have an abundance for every good deed"

Monday, September 28, 2009

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 03:57:26 GMT

I'm beginning to see why people like Washington so much. It is beautiful here. I'm thankful for a nice house to stay in with my cousin and a very soft bed. This weekend was full of much Grace. I'm thankful for having the opportunity for a church service this morning, the last one for several weeks. Tomorrow I'll start the adventure of OB again, on Yom Kippur. On this day, the Jewish people celebrate the Forgiveness of God. It's considered the Shabbat (Sabbath) of all Shabbats. May He be my rest this month, my hope and my all in all.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 05:32:55 GMT

tired.

just keep going.

"all my longings lie open before you O Lord, my sighing is not hidden from You. ps 38:9

God is good. and He does what is good. whatever is difficult, He works it together for my good, and it's benefit towards me is worth it. whatever you are going through, the end result-the good that you will gain, it's gonna be worth it.