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Name: Jennifer


Interests: God...people...hmmm. I like books, lots of them...having one on one conversations...art, biology, guitar, singing with people, windy days, the ocean, big windows, big toothy grins.
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Wednesday, July 01, 2009

God answered my prayer by saying NO to me today. I am so glad.

I was feeling overwhelmed with all the busy-ness of this exam time on top of still having ward duties and hospital psychiatry call and life issues that complicate things. So I am on home call today until 11pm and had prayed that I wouldn't get called in so I could get other work done. But I did in fact get called into the hospital to admit a couple suicidal patients. It was very special and I'm so glad I could spend those several hours talking with these broken, desperate, psychotic people. I left tonight so thankful to be in medicine and joyfully aware of God's kindness to me. It really  is like CJ says, that when asked how we are doing, the answer is always, "More than I deserve."


another note: Article analysis PAPER DONE! yay.
Currently
First Aid for the® Psychiatry Clerkship: Second Edition (First Aid Series)
By Latha Stead, S. Matthew Stead, Matthew Kaufman
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Thursday, June 25, 2009

Personality Disorders

So I've recently been learning about and seeing different personality disorders and it's fascinating.  In fact, you start seeing bits of them in everyone and yourself:  OCD,  Borderline, Paranoid, Histrionic, Dependent, Avoidant, Schizoid etc.  Our teacher said the difference between normal functional people and those with personality disorders is that we can jump between personalities for different coping needs, and are much more flexible than those paralyzed in thier disease. Isn't it interesting that some people can have personalities that are so jacked up, they are pathologic?

What amazes me is how intrigued society  is in general about classifying personalities even on the small scale. We love Myers-Briggs, the "which animal are you" or "Four Season's" , "Personality Plus" type of boxing people.  Our medical school spent a whole day during orientation testing and discussing personalitues- to "know thyself" before starting classes freshmen year.

I was thinking how much our personalities are tainted by Sin. So much FEAR, and PRIDE, and INSECURITY change who we are so that we become different people in different settings.  I began thinking about this after completing my addictions week on psychiatry. Over 9 months, you literally see a personality change in the patients who finish their 12-step rehab programs. The patients learn new coping mechanisms, take control and or release of thier anger, self-pity, arrogance.  Is it truly possible to change personality?  Is our insecurity or arrogance part of our personality and who we really are deep down?

When we get to Heaven and all our SIN is done away with, I imagine we will see very different people. We will still have a beautiful spectrum of personalities I am sure. But can you imagine it?  Who are you without your pride, fears, baggage?  I want to meet that person.  God is in the process of bringing us there.







Monday, June 22, 2009

My Dad.

Sometimes when I am having a hard day, I will force myself to recount the things in my life that I am thankful for.  My Dad is one of those people on my list.  My dad is so colorful and full of character that I can’t do him justice in this short blog. And you wouldn’t understand what he is like unless you met him. Almost all of the people who know my dad, however, are delighted and honored by his friendship because he brings more color into their lives too.

My dad is a gentle man.  He moved our family out to the hills where there are sheep and bugs and where he had enough land to hand plant over 75 fruit trees, a eucalyptus grove, and good smattering of cedar trees. He liked the quietness of the countryside and as he says, “I like to feed animals.”  He has always had a deep deep appreciation for the beauty of the earth and often says, “Wow! This is evidence for God.”  So on our hill with the fruit trees and the sheep, my dad would hold my hand and we would go for walks.   And he would talk to me but most of all, he would listen to me.  He is an excellent listener. And this is how I remember my dad growing up.

My dad is an interesting man with random hobbies. He is an expert abalone diver, has trained many men to skin dive in that cold pacific northern Cali coast, and can out dive anyone I know half his age.  Most of my friends don’t even know what that is, but if they knew, they’d be impressed and wish they too were able to do it too.  He is familiar with the ocean and has given our family the consistent regular privilege of enjoying fresh sea fish he hand spears and abalone, sea urchin, sea weed dishes all gathered by his own hand. It’s really amazing and no one who hasn’t experienced it can really understand it when I try to explain it.

He also goes hunting for wild mushrooms and attends club meetings with people who “hunt” for these LEGAL mushrooms.  My old biology teacher also goes to these meetings. Then after it rains, he goes out with a basket, collects hundreds of dollars worth of wild mushrooms, and cooks a big feast of it. When I tell people about this, they freak out. Those people who don’t freak out end up joining his crazy club of mushroom pickers, and come out on the weekends for a good time.

My dad is a FUNNY man.  He has that sanguine party personality that gathers people together and makes for a good time. He is pretty good at talking and more than not, when we go out, he is always conversing with strangers. He often ends up inviting them over to our place for a good weekend either out to the coast or picking mushrooms.  Again, all legal mushrooms. He’s a good storyteller and gives most of his friends a good laugh if they don’t get offended by his blunt unashamed opinions.

There’s so much more I could say about my Dad.  He is generous. He is generous.  He is generous.  He isn’t into status or expensive clothes.  He is not easily embarrassed by things that make most people cringe. He will butcher, skin, gut, and cook his own sheep, but feel sad when a praying Mantis dies.  He is really great at training loyal obedient dogs.  He makes good fishing poles out o fruit tree branches.  He knows a lot about the government.  He’s good at cooking random things like curry lamb, deep fried abalone, and mushrooms.  He is super hard working.  He loves and respects the elderly very deeply and visits them in the assisted living houses.   I love my Dad very much. He is good at telling me he loves me too and writes me almost daily emails telling me so. Often people will tell me I am similar to my dad. I always feel so honored by this. I don’t think they are right a lot of the time, but I hope it will become more true as I get older.

Happy Father’s Day Dad.  I thank our Father God for you.  May we press on to be faithful to Him, to love Him, and know that all good things come from Him alone.  Isn’t He so very good to us? 





Sunday, June 14, 2009

Wow!  John Piper Posts his books online for free download! this is amazing!


Currently
A Hunger for God: Desiring God through Fasting and Prayer
By John Piper
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Saturday, June 13, 2009



"Be Still, My Soul"
by Catharina von Schlegel, 1697-?
Translated by Jane Borthwick, 1813-1897

1. Be still, my soul; the Lord is on thy side;
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul; thy best, thy heavenly, Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

2. Be still, my soul; thy God doth undertake
To guide the future as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence, let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul; the waves and winds still know
His voice who ruled them while He dwelt below.

3. Be still, my soul, though dearest friends depart
And all is darkened in the vale of tears;
Then shalt thou better know His love, His heart,
Who comes to soothe thy sorrows and thy fears.
Be still, my soul; thy Jesus can repay
From His own fulness all He takes away.

4. Be still, my soul; the hour is hastening on
When we shall be forever with the Lord,
When disappointment, grief, and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot, love's purest joys restored.
Be still, my soul; when change and tears are past,
All safe and blessed we shall meet at last.

Hymn #651
The Lutheran Hymnal
Text: Psalm 46:10
Author: Catharine Amalia Dorothea von Schlegel, 1752, cento
Translated by: Jane Borthwick, 1855
Titled: "Stille, mein Wille"
Composer: Jean Sibelius, b. 1865, arr.
Tune: "Finlandia"





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